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“The truth is in the heart, letting go of the outside noise and fully coming to yourself…”
I used to shuffle oracle cards like some people chain-smoke cigarettes. Compulsively, desperately, looking for answers that were never really hiding in a deck of pretty pictures.
Picture this: me, sitting cross-legged on my bedroom floor at 2 AM, surrounded by multiple oracle decks I’d collected like some spiritual hoarder. The imagery was beautiful, sure. Some were gifts from friends who thought they were feeding my “spiritual growth.” But honestly? I was feeding an addiction to outsourcing my own damn intuition.
The Spiritual TikTok Rabbit Hole
My spiritual awakening journey started in the most millennial way possible, through TikTok. Yeah, I know. Not exactly the mountain cave meditation retreat you’d expect, right?
But there I was, fully invested in spiritual TikTok, watching endless videos about oracle card guidance and manifesting my dream life. Every swipe promised another revelation, another deck that would finally give me the clarity I was desperately seeking.
The problem wasn’t the cards themselves. Oracle cards can be incredible tools for intuitive development when used right. The problem was me treating them like a Magic 8-Ball for every decision in my life.
Should I text that person back? Let me pull a card. Should I quit my job? Better consult the deck. What should I have for breakfast? Okay, maybe I didn’t go that far, but you get the idea.
I was waiting for someone else, or something else, to tell me what my next move should be. I’d completely forgotten that the best answers were already inside me, just waiting for me to shut up and listen.
The Higher Self Myth That Kept Me Small
Here’s where my self discovery process got twisted. I became obsessed with this idea that my “higher self” was some mystical fairy goddess floating around in the ether, judging my every move.
I was terrified of disappointing this imaginary spiritual being, not realizing that my higher self was just… well, me. The best version of me. The version that doesn’t need external validation to make decisions. The version that trusts her own inner wisdom.
But I was so wrapped up in not doing wrong by this mythical spiritual guide that I forgot the most important part of any spiritual awakening journey: you’re the one driving the car.
The spirit realm isn’t some cosmic customer service department. Your intuition isn’t a separate entity you need to please. It’s your own internal GPS system, and mine had been shouting directions for years while I ignored it, too busy asking the cards what to do.
Breaking Up with the Cards (It’s Complicated)
The day I stopped shuffling was like breaking up with a toxic ex. You know it’s the right thing to do, but damn, it’s hard to let go of that familiar comfort.
I stopped turning to oracle card guidance every time I wanted an answer. I stopped waiting for external signs to tell me if I was making the right choice. Instead, I did something radical: I started experimenting and discovering things for myself.
It wasn’t about throwing away everything spiritual, that would be like throwing the baby out with the bathwater. It was about reclaiming my power and trusting that I could handle whatever came my way.
Personal spiritual growth isn’t about collecting more tools or finding the perfect guru. It’s about remembering that you already have everything you need inside you.
The Return: When the Cards Came Back (On My Terms)
Months passed. I didn’t even think about those decks collecting dust in my drawer. Then, during a training session, someone mentioned oracle cards, and something clicked differently this time.
Later that day, while running errands, I found myself thinking about one specific deck I owned. This deck had always given me clear messages, whether I liked them or not. (Sometimes the truth hurts, but it’s still the truth.)
So I decided to give it a shot, but this time with a completely different approach. Instead of desperately seeking answers, I sat on the positive side of the questions. I followed the formation the guidebook suggested, treating it like a conversation with myself rather than a desperate plea to the universe.
The reading I got was confusing at firs, the kind that could go either direction. But here’s the thing: the path I initially took was actually the message I truly believed deep down. My intuition had already known the answer. The cards just helped me admit it to myself.
If you’re interested in exploring oracle cards in a healthier way, Gabby Bernstein’s guide offers some great insights on using them as tools for connection rather than dependency.
Everything’s in Your Hands (And That’s Actually Amazing)
This is where intuitive development gets real. There’s no way to know exactly how things will turn out, but everything lies in our own hands. How we put forth effort, how we choose to see situations, how we respond to challenges; that’s all us.
The beautiful (and terrifying) truth is that we get to decide. We don’t need permission from the spirit realm, approval from our oracle cards, or validation from spiritual TikTok. We just need to trust ourselves enough to handle whatever outcome shows up.
I’ve jumped headfirst into plenty of adventures, and guess what? I’ve always made it out alive. More than alive, I’ve figured it out every single time. And so have you, if you really think about it. You’re still here, aren’t you?
The Real Work: Coming Back to Yourself
The real work in any spiritual awakening journey isn’t about collecting the right crystals or finding the perfect meditation app. It’s about letting go of the outside noise and coming back to what you truly value.
Everything we see day-to-day is filtered through our own perception. Depending on our mood, who we’ve been around, what thoughts are filling our heads; that’s how we process new information. There are always two sides to every coin, multiple ways anything could turn out.
The magic happens when you trust yourself to handle the outcome, no matter which direction it takes. When you understand that your perception shapes your reality, you stop being a victim of circumstances and start being the author of your own story.
We have so many options now, probably too many. The key is not letting shiny object syndrome get the best of us. Taking a moment to dig deep and feel what we really want takes practice, especially when we’ve ignored our inner voice for so long.
Focus on that one thing that lights you up. That thing that gives you hope for a better tomorrow. Once you understand and master the basics of that, the rest comes naturally.
Embracing the Journey (Even When It’s Messy)
It’s okay that you’re not where you want to be yet. It’s okay that it’s taking longer than you thought or hoped it would take. You’re still on the right path.
Instead of trying to accomplish fifteen different things at once, focus on just one for now. Trust me, it’ll be a major weight lifted off your shoulders.
Everything is temporary, and this phase will only last so long. Get excited about fully immersing yourself in learning and implementing the steps to be your best self.
Take care of yourself while you’re learning about yourself. Keep practicing awareness of choices that no longer serve you. Let go of them without doubting yourself with new choices.
Nothing happens overnight. This is a lifelong adventure with more layers than a jawbreaker, and that’s actually pretty cool as long as you don’t lose focus on what’s truly important to you.
When Fear Tries to Crash the Party
The fear and doubt of old habits and old ways of thinking will still creep in sometimes. They’ll make you second-guess whether this is going to work out the way you planned.
When that happens, release all expectations. Stay open to the unknown and trust that you can get yourself out if things turn rough, just like you have so many times before.
Don’t let fear keep you from going after what you truly want. You’re capable of anything you put your mind to. You just need to let go of the old thought processes that have held you back until now.
Do everything to the best of your ability, then keep improving the process. The less you try to focus on everything, the more intent you’ll have for what truly matters.
In the end, you truly only have yourself to live with forever. So be nice to yourself and do what makes you happy.
The Bottom Line
Your spiritual awakening journey doesn’t need oracle card guidance to be valid. It doesn’t need external validation to be real. It just needs you to trust yourself enough to take the next step.
The cards are still there if you want them, they’re tools, not crutches. But the real magic? That’s been inside you all along. You just had to stop looking everywhere else to find it.
Now go trust yourself. You’ve got this.
Frequently Asked Questions
Q: How do I know if I’m becoming too dependent on oracle cards?
A: If you’re pulling cards for every small decision, feeling anxious when you can’t access your deck, or unable to make choices without external validation, you might be crossing into dependency territory. The goal is using cards for reflection and insight, not as a replacement for your own intuition.
Q: Can oracle cards still be helpful after a spiritual awakening?
A: Absolutely! The difference is in how you use them. Instead of seeking answers, use them for self-reflection and to have conversations with your inner wisdom. They become mirrors rather than magic 8-balls.
Q: How long does it take to develop trust in your own intuition?
A: It’s different for everyone, but most people start noticing shifts within a few weeks of consistent practice. The key is starting small. Trust yourself with minor decisions first, then work up to bigger ones as your confidence grows.
Q: Is it normal to feel scared when transitioning from external guidance to self-trust?
A: Completely normal! You’re essentially learning to be your own guide after relying on external sources. Start small, celebrate wins, and remember that you’ve been making good decisions your whole life. You just might not have given yourself credit for it.
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